Life of Uncle Ben

2006-06-14T06:35:00.000-07:00

today..i decided to update my blog...

well... i personally feel.. in life... there is so much things to achieve and so much more to learn... sometimes.. we have to let go and sacrifce something or someone... maybe a sacrifce will enlighten one's thought... maybe disguise will open one's eye...i just hope she will get to know what am i trying to achieve and how big is my sacrifce this time... i doing all this just to let u know and wake up to face reality...sad case.

today i went to find someone to talk to... and what i realli could find is my inner-me telling me that everyone has their own problem.. and not everyone is gotta be there when u need them... so much of a hope and waiting... in the end... it is all abt disappointment...

i dun yearn for any repay.. or result in the end.. cause i guess i did my best... god bless her from now on~... love her. :)

2006-06-14T06:21:00.000-07:00

today..i decided to update my blog...

well... i personally feel.. in life... there is so much things to achieve and so much more to learn... sometimes.. we have to let go and sacrifce something or someone... maybe a sacrifce will enlighten one's thought... maybe disguise will open one's eye...i just hope she will get to know what am i trying to achieve and how big is my sacrifce this time... i doing all this just to let u know and wake up to face reality...sad case.

today i went to find someone to talk to... and what i realli could find is my inner-me telling me that everyone has their own problem.. and not everyone is gotta be there when u need them... so much of a hope and waiting... in the end... it is all abt disappointment...

i dun yearn for any repay.. or result in the end.. cause i guess i go all out and did my best... god bless her from now on~... love her. :)

2006-05-18T09:08:00.000-07:00

yes!!! good news.. Amasan is going to work with me in 3 days time.. hoho~~..so delighted to know that... hehe... today early in the morning, my boss reveal this happy news to me... it start my day with a big big smile~~ hoho...

second happy thing is.. i got lots of gift today... first is taiwan goodies... BBQ pork.. packet de wor..dun play play...

den.. here come a gift from USA... SAN Francisco... lOLz.. nice huh...

finally my boss gave me a treat too... sweet talk... obviously she wish to sweet talk to me ba... haa..lolz..kidding...

so happy..getting along well with different staff there.. hehe... i love the environment but i leaving in 3 weeks time..gotta miss them all... muack Jurong consultant... :)

2006-05-12T07:14:00.000-07:00

today i went to sim lim square to get a DVD drive and extra RAM.... well.. the crowd there is no kidding... bloody hell... typical singaporeans... my god...

in the end ..my com is upgraded~~... 256 to 768.... CD rewritable or DVD rewriteable... haha... i love my coM~~~.. hoho... so that means.. is gaming time~~.. haha..

2006-05-10T07:25:00.000-07:00

RoaR~~~~ i am updating my blog agaiN!!!

yes... bloody hell... i was so anticipated for the kuishibo the whole day... in the end... nabei kuku... normal nia... boo see mee... anyway.. still had fun~~..

preview of kuishibo...

but!!! B.U.T...before that we had hell lots of fun before the buffet... we went crazy shopping at suntec mall... finally i arrived to my dream island~~.. TOY R US... haha... so we decided to go in and have some fun!!!! haha... yes!!!
maybe u guys think toy r us are only for people to buy toys etc... but yea.. u are damn wrong.. have u ever thought that toy r us actually sell clothes too?
doubt me? let check it out~~~

believe me le ba... limin pester me for a long time to buy a cloth for her...but i refuse to do so... in the end.. guess wad did she do...

nabei ku ku...

actually i am a very nice guy... i dun like to see girls cry de... and happen that toy r us have florist too.. so i bought some flowers for limin to pamper her... den she act shy infront of me... wth....

guess where is the Lily in L.A.B... i happened to see him there too... such a small world sia... so i went to say hi to him...

my method of saying hello is normal..but Amansan method of greeting people is a big too rough for a cute guy like Lily... haha....

in the end.. i found one very lovely hello kitty and decided to take a picture with it... wa.. Kawaii~~....

back to topic... our kuishibo buffet... we went in with excitment... we sat down... start our gear... prepare to take off... PHOW!!! we go..~~ rushing for food.. here n there... eating non-stop... etc...

after 20 mins...

our victim is the weakest linK~... lousy.... boo~~~

this is what worth the buffet~~ very shiok~~ woahoO~~...

we ate like non-stop for two hours..den we are all dead... let see our three act cute beauty of the night....

hee~~~

today i got to my office... wah.. got two imported goods... one is thailand pocky.. another one is guang zhou products.
let us see the diff~~

at night met up with the cutest girl i met b4... nice dimples... nice smile... fun loving animals... ho shuxian.. so cute... other than how she tease me non-stop... the rest of it.. was good.
she end my day with a big smile.. thanks babe...

2006-05-08T07:21:00.000-07:00

08/05/06

due to over-whelming response for my long absentee in bloging... i finally decided to blog again for all readers sake.... haha...

since i have not been updating any of my stuff... today... once and for all i gotta update it at one go... so i guess it is gotta be a long long blog...

i am going to start with my work... well well... since the day i work till today.. it has been more than a month... and gosh... i got my first PAY~~~... got my own space and got "hunky"as my nick in the department... hehe... o ya... speaking on the bi-weekly friday buffet... i got a few snap of the food... let us take a good look at it... hoho...

my god... set meal?

close up....

heaven in office???

speaking of good food.. it always has to be eaten in a relaxing way... so let u guys see how relaxing i can be... hehe...

legendary "hong kong" leg?? or japanese style ???

speaking about make yourself feel like home....

feel home enough now??? haha...

not forgetting the secret chamber of mine... i gotta reveal the "hunky"'s secret... AlaKaZAM!!!!

as u guys can see... snacks.. VCD.. choc..etc... my secret chamber~~~

bloody ku ku... dun think i only relax in my work k...i do work and have serious moments too... look at the mAN~~

Ho MAn WOR~~~

enough of my JTC admin boy stuff... now i gotta update u guys on our L.A.B team. L.A.B has change from match making service to a fun and outgoing team... we let people join us and have fun together... let take a look at our first contestant... SiYU!!!

wad a cool pic... L.A with the B and siyu...

siyu by nature is very havoc le..but no one reveal the inner her... so L.A.B is gotta do it...

INFOMATION OF VICTIM

NAME : SIYU
AGE : 21 OUTCOME : GET BULLIED!!!!!
GENDAR : FEMALE

initally... we let our prey have fun with us... we crack some jokes... we catch a movie together... AQUAMERMAID... we laugh alot..we tease alot...

there remind me a song... "we have joy...we have fun...we have seasons in the sun... but the joy that we had are just plainly in disguise..." WahaAHa... remix of westlife....

anyway... by the end of the day... let us see the end result...

Poor Victim~~

see what we did to her... happy moments end fast... haha...

haha... tml i am going for a japanese buffet~~~ KunshiBO~~... heard it super nice... my god.. i am dying for it... promise u guys.. update tmL for sure~~~.. by then.. our victim tml will be a new girl name SusAN~~ haha... she is dead~~ hoho...

2006-04-17T06:07:00.000-07:00

9.06pm

update update update!!!

newest update... WRSS pioneer gathering... who? where? why? when? ROaR~~!!! yes... L.A.B cum special guest chew yun... where? newton circus food center... when? yesterday!!! why? simply to gain weight... that all... haha...

first of all... all of us are friends for how many years... let me count... not one... not two.. not three ... not four for sure.. but not five too... i cannot say it six but confirm not seven... is EIGHT!!! haaha.. 8 years man... no kidding.. haha... so long nv see chew yun liao.. woah... more n more cute le.. haa... let's not put min and des into the picture yet... haha... 3 years nv see chew yun..same old cute and pretty.. haha... good for her. :)

okok..back to gathering picture now... we met up in orchard to shop around trying to lose some weight before the fattening dinner... haha... no effect at all actually.lolz... as i see from limin tummy.. i knew it did not help a single bit.. haha... we walk and walk... chatting about our secondary school stuff... den knnb... the stupid sky start to rain... aww... we are struck!!! in cineleisure... where? basement food junction... the atomsphere is so damn weird... four of us.. looking at each other... my god!!! suddenly the smartest guy of all thought of doing a very meaningful thingy... that smartest guy (erm..urm....) took out his deadly weapon... HIS... Handphone! haha... there we go again...

see right hand side... chew yun bloated face!!! so cute... and on the left... natural bloated...

wrss pioneer... we rockz!!!!

wth....

we sat for around 30 mins..den i heard one fat tummy growling... guess whose tummy is that.. i dun wish to reveal..but it is not mine... not chew yun and not des... that all i can say... not very obviously actually... haha...

so we are on our way to newton cirus... haa... we reach there through obstancles.. and barriers... together through thick and thin... we finally reach our destination... yup...

from old days till now.. man is always the head of the family... so the girls will sit there and the manly guys will order wadever food they wan... haa.. me and des ordered stingray... oyster... lala... satay... kang kong..chicken wings... and sugarcane... hehe.. o ya.. initally we were talking n talking... BUT right after the food came... we just eating non stop... NonO!! not we... only me and limin... haha... we really focus on food and the rest seems not important at all... haha... wad kinda piglets we portal to others ...haha... as u guys can see... four greedy beast is having their meal and really forgot to take pictures... haha... lucky the world most handsome hunk reminded them about that photo taking section den everyone came back to sense... haa...

guest of honour.. GOH CHEW YUN

L.A.B de L = Lily

L.A.B de A = Anasan

L.A.B de B = Biao bui ge

who dare to snatch my food!!!

ye shou... haa..beast in action...

that is all mine... grinds...

L.A.B snatching for a stupid stick of satay~~

three dummy snatching over a stingray bone... haha...

no no.. dun eat... it has been drug.. beware chew yun!!!

three blind mice or three kam gong?

wad is des trying to achieve here...

two girls trying to take advantage of hunky ben... my god..

Our desert...oo.ya.. newton circus de cheng teng.. CMI!!! knn... lolz..

at the end of day... we really enjoy ourself out there... food... laughter... relax... enjoyment.. hehe.. i love them alot.. god bless them...

2006-04-15T07:20:00.000-07:00

10.19pm

i have been thinking... why did people always have to follow and think when they see somethings from the appearance...why people have to be so shallow... why humans brain are so dead... why did they need to judge a person by how he look... how many of guy or girls friends he/she have... why did they need to judge a person by its past.... why did people have to judge from wad they heard instead of knowing that person and judge him/her by their own... why humans are such a weak soul that needs to be lead on that to take the lead...

does a handsome guy have to be flirt? sexy girl have to be cheap? guys who always stick to girl friends is a gay or pussy.... girls who always stick to guys friends is a bitch? are they judging from jealously or are they reallli wad they portal?

in my life... i have never been a good guy from the first impression... what i gave others is flirt, bastard, chee hong, pervert and farker... why? what did i really do to give them this first impression? some say is my smile and the way i look at people... some say i the way i act.. some hear from others... some feel it this way...

today i gotta confess ... well dudes and babes... this are various barriers for u guys to get into my life.. maybe u all dun realli wish to be in my life but that is how shallow humans can be or should i say selfish... u one person have this view and u are stopping me from my happines...why is it so... humans dun speard good things around.. i wun't know why...

but yes.. why selfish.. u guys are stopping me from getting my happiness... stopping me from the girl i like to trust me... stopping me from alot of things. if u all stand in my shoe.. pls think for me... farking hell.... which guys will realli sit down and chat with u about ur problems.... which sexes are more sentimental....

if u guys think that is feel good to hear from people that say 'benson got alot of girls..." or "benson why single? why no go cheat girls" or"ben can find girls easily de le... "or maybe "ben, u change le meh? dun bluff la...u change i chop off my head..."

stand in my shoe... think for me from once... if u are facing all those accuse by people everyday... and no one to share ur woes and problems... who give u encourgment when u need them.. who give u a pat on ur head saying u are a nice guy... family cannot possible share external problems like this... will u stand strong and face it with smiles like me everyday? it is not very nice to sleep every night trying to find someone to chat to me and help me to stop from thinking of those dreadful acccuse stuff... whenever i am free or bored... all those painful memories will surface... so i choose to hide...

some girls wan to feel secure and safe not getting a bad guy... but can u trust me in the first place and take my words like any other guys? can u show me more love and concern instead of me asking for it...?

emotionally hurt is the worse cut of all cuts... i am badly hurt since duno when... till now.. i am still cut... i hope there is really someone who are unique from those bunch of shallow humans... i hope that someone is meant for me... i pray .. i hope. god bless me...

2006-04-11T07:10:00.000-07:00

10.08pm

11/04/06

recently i am so busy exploring the company till i forgot to blog... haha... okie. here my update.

i went to the mini staff corner to walk around... i spotted a very cute machine and i went to play with it... O my god... so many choices of drinks.. lolz.. so i took a sample and test.. woah..not bAD.. i took teh tarik... lolz... man...

i can see U~~

Wah... many choices - please select one

Ding Dong... outcome...

den i went to the staff recreation club to see see too... OO o.. my god.. the pathway is so high class man.. feel like hotel design... no wonder JTC is archtiture.. they realli can build and design...

Feeling high?

i found out... in the level.. there is a GYM... A SNOOKER table.. a KICKBOXING arena... BADMINTON court and SUANA... there is JACKPOT... ARCADE...lots more.. too big to explore man...

Look what more...

yes.. back to my desk... got tons of files to go through... haiz... being a manager is so hard man.. so many stuff need to go for approved... haiz.. hard on me.. lolz... enjoy my work there.. but yea..going NS in july... god bless me

My George Benson Desk

Tons of paper and documents for approved...

2006-04-09T03:31:00.000-07:00

09/04/06

6.30pm

i read something on the article... i find it true.. i gotta blog it

LOVE WAITS. LUST WANTS
LOVE CANNOT WAIT TO GIVE WHAT IS TRUE AND HONOURABLE.
LUST CANNOT WAIT TO TAKE.
LOVE MENDS. LUST HURTS. LOVE IS SECURE. LUST IS SELFISH
LUST ENDS. LOVE LASTS.

truth about guys saying to girls

bold = guys
unbold = girl

Famous line - Response

If you love me, you will let me - If you love me, you would nt be asking me to give up something I am saving

But I am committed to you - Funny, I dun see a wedding ring

It is safe- I have condoms - You want me to bet my future on that piece of rubber

I thought this relationship was going Somewhere - If somewhere is sex, then think about going somewhere else

You are the only only one I want to - Give myself to Great. If I am the only one, you can wait till marriage

2006-04-07T07:35:00.000-07:00

10.34pm

07/04/06

yuan lai admin work got benefits le... haha.. JTC.. every friday also gathering and buffet de le... haha... i got my first treat from JTC...

let u all see...

fried kway teow

tao sway

somemore desk delivery le.. hehe....
I getting fatter !!! so happy !!!

2006-04-06T07:08:00.000-07:00

10.08pm

6/4/06

well.. i have work at JTC for two days le... haha.. well.. pls call me admin ben... lolz..

finally i got experience of admin job.. hehe.... filing... photocopying... faxing..etc... all sia... ismy work scope. i got to know that admin job is all about routine work... no brain needed... cum it is so boring... lolz...

okay. back to topic... admin job also got ranking de k... got a desk... got a com... got comfortable sofa... got ur own tag... wad is a name tag...

let us see...

preview of my desk....

two days of work le... happy to mix around with the staff there... haha..feel good there.. hope to work happily.. hehe... god bless me...

2006-04-04T07:29:00.000-07:00

10.30pm
04/04/06

i woke up at 9.31pm disturb by a phone call... well... the first thing i heard is " can u come at 10.30...?" yes.. that was the first line on the phone... well.. is my admin job at JTC... so i went there... for a interview... and yup.. i got the job.. starting my work tml... that was fast izzit it..?

my workplace...

after that ... i went to J8 at bishan for a movie.. yes... went to watch ice age 2 with erica aka donka... lolz.. donka is the closer term that i call her... D.O.N.K.A = donkey plus erica... so that makes donka. lolx... we watch ice age and it was very funny... a funny show i can say.. i rate it 7/10.. :)

we parted around 2 plus as i am going to meet xiao des... lolz.. we arrange for a sakae buffet today...!!! we eat alot.. and we are comparing...

LEGEND: LEFT = ME /// RIGHT = DESMOND

lets see the first round result...

second round result...

third round result...

as u can see.. who is the champion.... lolz.. i enjoy myself alot today.. let put it this way... it is the last day i can enjoy during my weekdays.. and i gotta start my work tml!!!

other photos at the sushi place...

COLD mee sua...

smile smile...

act see mee cool...

nb...see bei yandao... lolz

relax man...?

before he realise...

after he realise

i love my life recently.. muack... thanks god~

2006-04-02T07:26:00.000-07:00

10.25pm

02/04/2006

i am moody since yesterday... lucky jess came to accompany me go beach today... we chatted alot there...about life..school... future... happy that she came to meet me... feeling so much better :) ended my day at the beach... happy and contented...sea breeze make me refresh again... i wish i go into ns soon... i wish .. i hope..

god bless me...

me and jess

2006-03-30T05:59:00.000-08:00

10pm

30/03/06

well well.. many question me wad had happen after that? u guys might be puzzle by , who is hell is "that". well.. is ada and desmond!!!... if u guys duno.. pls see 29/03/06 blog update.. :)

okay... first of all.. me and desmond went to gym today... i tell u... normally when we do gym... we are pushing ourself to the limit... let me give u an example and preview of a serious gym workout...

wah... ho man!!!

oo..yes...today desmond was doing gym with me... intially he was pretty serious... den when his phone start to ring... he become distracted... by who? let u guys to guess ba... lolz... after that.. he is always maintaing this pose...

yes..yes..sms can make u fitter la hor...

from the start to the end... wad the hell he come gym for sia... ada oo ada.. pls stop sms him la.. lolz.. let him do his workout... lolz...

after seeing my beloved desmond so happy.. i also heck care liao.. i became to act cute.. .lolz..

wad a cute cute pose...

look like turtle anot?

at night.. i went to find qinghong and my dearest SK!!!.. soon kiat ... he came back to singapore le!!! yea yea... can see he enjoy himself there... oo my god.. love him la.. haha... today see all my beloved guys friends... but i also miss my nyp dudes too... oo my god.. gotta wait for my chalet to see everyone of them here.... argh~~~~....

god bless me

2006-03-28T06:15:00.000-08:00

28/03/06

10.15PM

today is a gay day for me... first thing in the morning i msn with desmond... den.. noon i met up with desmond.... den... i went to woodlands gym with desmond... during evening.. desmond and me went for swimming... not forgetting... dinner is still with my beloved desmond... wahaha... today.. he is like my gf... bf... maid... entertainment..buddy... lover... sex slave... lolz...

first time see guy eat ban mee... desmond eat ban mee le... somemore eat till so happy... really got a look at a slowly reformed gay... haha... we walk home together... on the way... i called up limin to settle offical stuff tml... haha.. duno will things work out tml not.. but yea... i pray it will... haha...

long time no play ball liao... haha... think will be playing at thursday ba.. hehe... roar~~... god bless me...

2006-03-27T05:06:00.000-08:00

9.06pm

27/03/06

date : 27/03/06
time : 4.30++pm

nearly that was the death of mr george benson. today i was attending my driving practise.. i was brain dead... i could not think and judge any situation on the road... i lost my concetration... i nearly create two accident... my god... the driving uncle was freak out... i guess if i were to stand in his shoe... i will get freak out too...

my whole mind was thinking a lot of stuff which i duno if am i too paranoid or wad... freak out today... hope to get a good night sleep.

sign off.. ben.

2006-03-25T09:16:00.000-08:00

1.13am

26/03/06

was holding my hp till 12am... today is someone bday... dun dare to sms her... lolz... i bo ji.

happy bday girl. happy 19th. bday

end of blogging

1.22am

2006-03-23T06:14:00.000-08:00

10.13pm

23/03/06

today i went to meet jimmy goh ku ku for lunch... haha... finally get to see him liao after such a long period... comments abt him... have to say he is very build now... still same old ugly... haha.. same old funny ..haha...

anyway.. we went to sakae sushi to eat the teatime buffet... wah... can really see he long time never eat good food liao... one go he can order like 5 handroll with lots of side dishes... haha... wad more is he is doing this kinda order again and again... my god... that explain his size u know... haha..

let u all see his current ugly pic... haha...

a preview of the food i hate most before we eat....

a preview of the food i hate most after we ate....

after a very very fattening cum full lunch... i went to sweat abit... haa... come home with a bloated tummy... knn.. still same old fat fat me... lolz... dieting plan!!! haa... happy today..

god bless me.. tml gym!!

end of blogging
10.20pm

2006-03-22T06:32:00.000-08:00

10.30pm

22/03/06

today i went to gym in the morning woah.. went with weiming and thomson cum steven with hong wei... haha... we went to the school gym ... was talk cocking and gyming at the same time... den went to have lunch with tat wee, rachel, jannete and erica...

today i suppose to attend a workshop that is conducted by team singapore from source jess loh but in the end.. i was not feeling too well so i went home and rest... woke up around 6 and had dinner with my mum and dad... love them sia.. they realli can talk cock alot.. haha.. much better than me... lolz.. admit defeat... haha...

went to take form from pris loo at block 515 and play ball there... sweat a bit.. lose some weight.. so happy.. currently i am waiting for xiao des and thomson to play game... haha... dota.. hope i can end the game with victory.. haha... tml is a hectic day... god bless me

10.40pm
end of blogging

2006-03-21T06:15:00.000-08:00

21/03/06

10.15pm

well.. today... finally got back track on my driving lessons... yesh!.. proceed to gear 4 liao.. haha. coolz~.... uncle praise me... say my driving actually not bad... but lack of practise.. .lolz... haha.. think gotta really buck up ba...

oo. ya... sneeze the whole day man... wth.. bloody flu... make my day so suffering... haha... body ache too... due to gym on monday... urgh... lolz... i am a weak man... haaha...

end my day at home play dota... so happy~.. haha... tml perhaps going gym... tml perhaps go see movie... aiz.. duno la..see how it goes...

2006-03-19T04:40:00.000-08:00

19/03/2006

8.40pm

yoz... here to update my blog once again... sunday as usual is a family day for me... been staying at home the whole day helping out with house chores...

my accomplishment

air-con maintaince
toliet bowl cleaniness
fan cleaniness
swept the floor
changing of fish tank water

well well... that is all i did today... among this... the fish tank water has been change and i saw my two beloved oscar are lively again.. hoho.... let u guys see my cute fish....

preview of my two cuties

xiao b

da b

tml i am going school for gym session... and i am going to school on wednesday evening too.. haha... slim n fit!!! go go go! haha.... build bond with family members today... haha.. family love.. o m g... i love it~~~... muack.. love my family... :)

god bless me... stay cool and happy... :)

end of blogging
8.44pm

2006-03-18T08:05:00.000-08:00

18/03/06

11.59pm

well... today is a tiring day man...

during the noon time..i was attending a workshop title life, love and sex... haha... that workshop really teach me something man... i am glad i took this workshop.. but yea.. if secondary school student could take part too, it will be great man... :)

there is a commitment stuff... well... let u guys take a look ..haha... i vow to it... i will keep to it man.. :)

commitment as a good man

went to sembawang.. saw esther there giving flyers.. haha... she changed her hairstyle liao.. haha... quite cute la.. haha... we went to eat cavana for dinner... haha... she sneak out from her work.. wth... lolz... well.. hope she and her bf work out well.. :)

esther's order

my order

as for me... well well... i still duno if i could make things work out.. but yea..i will try. no harm trying guys... no regrets.. that the point right? haha.... god bless me... :)

end of blogging
12.10am

2006-03-17T06:52:00.000-08:00

17/03/2006

10.52pm

well... well... today i was resting at home till around 3pm before i make my way to town to meet limin. woah... all i can say is... she is full of happiness la... so "xin fu" ba. lolz...

right after that i went to meet tat wee, jannette, rachel, ze kai to post-celebrate erica bday at fish & co...

haha.. we was like teasing each other with the oyster stuff before erica's friends join in... haha... in the end... me and erica share a seafood plattment together... haha...
we was trying to stuff each other with mussels.. lolz...

our mess~~

in the end, there was a tiny cake so called birthday cake... haha... things ended with a smile... but i can see erica has something in her mind... i duno wad going on with her but i gotta find out .... haha...

we parted as i gtg and they went to catch a movie... celebration ended with a smile on everyone face... happy ending i can say... nice group of friends... simple celebration... :)

bday girl

second shot of bday girl

end of blogging
11pm

2006-03-15T21:03:00.000-08:00

16/03/06

1.02pm

well well.. finally got a working mouse from fida... so happy that i can scroll with a mouse le... hoho... anyway... fida is going for a web application cert test.. hope things work out for her ... bless her...

yesterday... went to sembawang beach for a walk... well.. sitting down at the bench to feel the sea breeze is like a total relaxation for mind body and soul... i feel so relax there... so comfortable... so shiok...

went to sunplaza to eat my lunch ... saw her working today.. she seems to become more fragile.. more pale... i duno why.. nv walk in ...but stood outside and peek only.. haha...

i went to school after that.. to get the hp cable and some other stuff... went to gym too... haha.. feel good to be fit once again...

joke of the day...
" what do we call a cripple prawn?"
answer = lame xia ( xia = prawn in mandarian)

haha... wth... later i am going for a movie with erica... the "date movie" hope the show is nice... if not nice i gotta curse and swear the preview of the show... haha...

to be updated.....

updated version

well... well... anyway... the date movie ... is ... argh!!!! i did't get the watch the movie..last min changes... my god... i am like cursing and swearing... haha... is okie la.. the movie will not vanish by today...

mood = normal
fats = increase
money = decrease
trouble = increase

overall = still can manage

haha... god bless me!!!

end of blogging
9.43pm

2006-03-14T08:47:00.000-08:00

15/03/06

12.45am

today... is was like a guys day for me.. me, desmond, soon kiat and qing hong went to my beloved minshun house to enjoy ourself... hoho...

well... special thanks to minshun for his facility... lolz...
anyway...we went to gym... swimming... jacuzzi den suana... woah... the best part is suana... it was like seeing all my fats convert to sweat and flow out... lolz... i love it man...

after that me, qh and des went to eat prata... pretty nice... lolz.. den me and des went to cwp to walk walk... bought something for the cute little 18 year old indo chinese... haha... something i find is nice la... something i think she might love it... giving it to her on thursday ba...

reach home..initally though it is going to end good... who the hell know... kexin.. poh leng... soon kiat... including me... like four country fighting... lolz... i was't really bother... too much things was coming on my mind... ended my day not really prefect... sob... aiz.. hope things will be fine in a few days ba...

god bless me...

end of blogging
12.53am

2006-03-13T18:42:00.000-08:00

14/03/06

10.40pm

finally got time to update my blog... well... my heart feel heavy...

process of a human being is life, growth and death.... whenever someone around me pass away... i will be speechless... in the state of confusion and dilema... i would't know wad to do or wad to say... i am feeling so lost... do i realli dun have the guts to face death or am i realli hiding away from reality...

sitting down here in front of my com.. i felt that so many years of studying... it finally came to a full stop... no more schooling for me... no more lectures anymore... i gotta step into another phrase of my life... i gotta refresh everything and work hard once again... 3 months before NS... 2 years before working... life is short... i would'nt wan to waste anytime anymore... let me enjoy my 2 yrs 3 months of my stress free life... and after that... i gotta aim high....

god bless him for leaving this world.. and rest in peace....
god bless me for my future life...

end of blogging
10.50am

2006-03-10T16:41:00.000-08:00

11/03/06

8.40pm

today is the weekends...!!! IT fair gotta be crowded today... and there is something i gotta achieve today...

first of all....
i gotta hit 30 survey forms....
i wanna hit 10 order list....
i wanna eat two packet of rice....
i wanna go find desmond....
i wanna go find jess....
i wanna see erica visit me in the fair....
i wanna go home early....

haha... above all this request... i hope all work out well. and if it does... i gotta do a strip dance on sunday... hoho.... god bless me... so happy to see that some one see changes in me... some buddies of mine.. relative of mine... i love it... love u guys man... god bless u guys too!!!

to be updated at night....

updated version...

today... i hit a few target....

i saw erica...
hit the survey target...
saw desmond...
hit the order list...

the rest... not done le.... haha.. quite happy today.. worry for something that happened just now... sad la... but is okie.. everything will be alright... i believe in it... haha...

11pm

2006-03-09T16:31:00.000-08:00

10/03/06

8.30am

this early morning.. i recieve one sms from someone... why till this farking moment she still dun believe me... why must she text me...why must she tag me to hurt me in this way... is this realli my retribution?

i start my day with a glumy mood...hope i get well before work.... i am vexed... so piss... it is hurtful to be accuse...

to be contiuned....

8.33am

2006-03-09T06:55:00.000-08:00

09/03/06

10.55pm

today is my first day in the IT fair... haha... one thing about this IT fair stuff...it is very long.. seriously... haha.... it is tiring... stressful... yet fun~ haha...

initally i thought the survey will be like a chicken feet task for us... haha... who the hell know... people shopping for gadgets look at us like ghost man... haha... we surveyors are like ghost haunting them... lolz... den our sales today, haiz... CMI.... lolz...

o..ya....when it was like a ending towards the fair... someone sms me... say i betray her when i was with her.... wth... everyone pls tag... how much did i love her... how many times did i mention to everyone i has a gf... how much attention i gave her... she treat it blindly... den got one mather farker girl go tell her... she was having an affair with me during that period... haha.... my god... i was like totally no mood when reaching the end of the fair... yea... but i gotta get over it... :)

why people has to go through the past and not look at the future and cherish PRESENT? hope everyone makes a right choice ba... :) god bless me...

sign off blogging

11.05pm

2006-03-08T06:59:00.000-08:00

08/03/06

11pm

once again... i gone in MIA for 2 days... hoho... alright...gotta update lots of stuff... haha...

first of all... yes... finally have a picture of my EMRS room.... lolz... can see is very bright cause the photographer is lousy ba... lolz..but yea... that is a preview of my room... look messy? haha.. yes i bet... lolz...

secondly.... mingxuan... min shun... vivian and me went to partyworld at woodlands... yst... woah... had a crazy time there... first time... sing so many sad songs.. first time... create havoc in ktv.... first time.. treat a ktv like a clubbing place... haha... so happened... so fun.... initally...lots of sad memories and emotional came to my mind.. but yea..thanks to mingxuan and vivian cum min shun... haha.. they brought life to me... lolz.. so happy at the end... hoho....

thirdly... our manicure workshop happened today!!! yes... it was a success!!! can see everyone did enjoy them self... was happy it came our great..effort paid.... everything was okay... i love it... especially the last part when we gotta burst all the balloons... woah... it was super high... once again... it was us... a preview of the balloons... haa... the room was nice... i love it... haha...

lastly... yes.. everyone in nyp... so long~~... i gotta grad from nyp le... bye bye poly... bye bye students... today mark my last project in nyp... oo my dear nyp... i had so much memories there... i enjoy so much in nyp... i love nyp... i love my friends.. i love everyone... aww... feeling so sad that i gotta leave nyp and walk into the working life...

once again.. i gotta say... i love nyp... nyp..good bye...

sign off blogging
11.15pm

2006-03-05T07:04:00.000-08:00

05/03/06

11.05pm

actually today i should be out for at town or bugis for a walk... instead... i was home all day long man... so lifeless....

at the noon... jio wenbin... thomson... ching yu to play ball de.. in the end... at home play my own balls... wth... sianz... but nevermind! at night still got qing hong and esmond pei me play ball.. haha.. happy~

something happened to someone and i guess my retribution is over... time for those who used to mistreat me has a taste of retribution... haha... sha la la... i feel i am mean somehow.. but yea.. chance is given.. ego overtake everything.. too bad ...

tml gotta go for a job interview stuff.. hope it works out... god bless me.. start of my working life... a preview.. :) go go go!!

sign off blogging
11.20pm

2006-03-04T17:13:00.000-08:00

05/03/06

9.13am

the first thing i woke up... i realise i gotta lose 4 person at a go... the sudden loneliness in me surface from within.... this two days... i got the news that people that used to be close with me are going to leave me...actually i am scare.. afraid that there is more to come...

when i was browsing through my contact list... i am searching for someone that i can talk to... someone that is my pillar of support... sad to say... i found none... at that particular moment... i was thinking through my life... my social life is wide... i got tons of friends.. so wad... i dun realli have someone that i can share or talk everything under the sun... i feel a bit of failure inside...

where can i go... what should i do.... i pray god send me a guardian angel... i wish someone will be there for me for now on.... bless me...

2006-03-03T07:24:00.000-08:00

03/03/2006

11.26pm

Today... i am on MC... went to queue for that bloody poly clinic... wah seh... realli no give chance... 10 plus reach... 1 plus reach home... took a nap before going out... zZzz....

woke up around 3 plus... went to town... on my way to town... hp ring~~~..woah... my teammates msg me... ask me how i am... quite a number of my friends ask me how i am... i feel touch sia... mx...ms....vv...fd....zp... js.... u all make my day... :)

went to find liming at far east... hoho... see she getting plumper each time i see her... wah... must be very xin fu ba... lolz... den... js come by..with a herbal tea... i was so happy!!..so touched... she actually bought it down to far east just for me... salute her le la... so considerate and sweet of her... in the end... join weiming, steven, qing you, zhua per and wen bin and pris to shop for present... one thing i found out... actually guys are more indecisive than girls...cannot stand those iron ladies of nyp... pengz...

i hope js will be well for her personal affair... i pray for her... stand up .. be strong... i'll be there... :)

sign off blogging
11.40pm

2006-03-02T06:39:00.000-08:00

02/03/2006

10.40pm

today i am very very very sick... been bullied by teammates... been bullied by teachers... now even at home my family try to own me... wth... can't they see i am like trying to be strong while inner of me i realli hope someone will realli care...

humans always take things for granted... humans are selfish man....

i learned...

The heart of one can be determine by the actions done...

Verbal promises are like walking through a land of illusion...

not true

the greatest thing in love.. is to love and be love in return....

sign off blogging

11.00pm

2006-03-01T05:11:00.000-08:00

01/03/2006

9.13pm

my mood for today is sucky.... really sucks to the core...

for this bloody event stuff... i been sick for more than a week but yea... all my effort and sacrfice for the team is been totally ignored... that bloody teacher better open her eyes to see that everyone is trying hard yea... darn her

promises given are lies... i have been living in this world of lies and hoax... am i too naive... am i a little too childish to believe that everyone treat each other with true respect? ... i dun realli know... i went to the gym to get away from the world of lies... but in the end, i ended up in the basketball court... that is the place where i feel most relax and even my mind, body and soul are feeling relieved too... praises from people in and out of the court... amazed expression by every move i do... i am glad... that i still possess that charm in the court...

one question in my mind - shall i shut my door to the stranger out there or shall i give them an second chance? i wun't know.. i just could not believe why humans like to make use of one another when we are all in the same boat...

god enlighten me...

9.30pm

2006-02-28T05:54:00.000-08:00

28/02/2006

9.52pm

ooo man... have not been updating my blog for a day... kinda went in a MIA mode... haha..

this two days i have been so busy with my stupid school stuff... my god... events is killing me... haha... that is not the only thing that is killin me... my stupid cough is killing me too ... is like attacking me every now and then... wth...

well... in EMRS room.. woah... so happening... magic show and tricks by starring benny and sub actor samuel..haha... and a mass gathering at a com at emrs room seeing videos of ARTISTIC WORK together as a TEAM... haha... acutally is a guys team la... haha...

i have not been jogging for gym for this two days.. kinda slack but yea..promise tml i will do it.. today went to play bball with a few dude there... haa..enjoy myself man..haha..and with the support of a cheerleading girl jess.. haha... so cooL~

well.. kinda depressed at the end of today... is like.. i thought it was like a new start for me...i was like pondering and hoping so much for something to happened but in the end.. i found out... actually... i am just standing at the same point... nothing has come... nothing is ever there... never to say... nothing has happened... but yea.. i clear my mind.. i am glad. no regrets...

god..hope something good happened to me... if not in the case of love... pls let it be in the court... bless me...

sign off blogging
10.07pm

2006-02-26T06:46:00.000-08:00

26/02/2006

10.45pm

dear blog.... today was a family day for me... i was with me family whole day... haha..nothing happened much... dad crack a few jokes... mum did a few silly stuff...

went for a jog just now... from woodlands to sembawang... sweat sweat... haha... finally on my track to my diet plan.. haha..

urm...nothin to say le.. .gotta end my blog for now...

sign off blogging
10.50pm

2006-02-25T07:40:00.000-08:00

25/02/2006

11.41pm

right in the morning i went to the beach... to relax myself... yea... was very relaxing den... on my way back home..saw weida... he told me abt a 3 on 3 basketball thingy... was kinda like interested but not yet confirm la... haha....

in the noon, went to SK house... hoho.. he become better looking le... somemore i was on the phone with PL... haha... they two act like gays man... haha... clubbers... in the evening ... went to support minyi VS autoeast with jess... hoho... minyi won... jess was like part of minyi family... haha.. maybe with zhuaper... lolz... kinda sad la..that i cannot play with them... but yea..nvm... will have chance de ba... anyway..enjoy myself with them today...

reach home around 10pm... dad order pizza for me... hoho... think i getting fatter le la... he order pizza as supper... haha... bo bian..have to eat... but yea..taste nice... wahaha.... happy ending for today... hoho...

sign off blogging
11.51pm

2006-02-24T06:38:00.000-08:00

24/02/2006

10.38pm

today is a sad sad day for TEAM EMRS.... initially.... everyone was out to decro the booth... trying to bring out the best of us in this mini roadshow... but yea..as everythin is going just fine... a stunting thng happened....

team 6... my team stuff was stolen.... i recieve the call from belle... the reaction i have was like was so shock at that point of time... i ran down.. and went to see my stuff... well..lucky my stuff is still there... so i went to took minshun bag up along with my bag to let minshun double check his bag there.... well... i think because of this act of mine..i was like a suspect too... wth... but yea.. i am okay with it...

sad to see belle... sk...gwen feeling moody.. belle even cry... i feel the hurt she got.... i think that she is realli the unlucky victim... haiz... pray things go well for her yea... sorry.. i think i call her to place her things in the cardboard... i think i have a part to play too... sorry belle...

went for a jog today... well.. did not have the motivation to run... think my injury of leg is coming back... hate it when it happens... tml gotta be a good day for me.. i hope....

sign off blogging

10.55pm

2006-02-23T04:55:00.000-08:00

23/02/2006

8.58pm

well... speaking for updating this blog... i guess the most exciting thing about today is tomorrow... haha...well... this is because tml will be our roadshow.. but come to think of that... it will be surrounded by 30 over TEP students.... my god... i dun realli know how the whole set up will be but yea..hopefully it is successful....

i am happy because i start to click well with the EMRS students.... felt they are realli very good presenters... they realli can bring out wad they wish they can highlight... that is like hell lots of difference between IT students and BIZ students... i come to think of it... we are like having brains without a mouth... wth...

i am getting this habit of whenever i am sad or moody... i will do some sit ups... push ups... wadever... well.. this is like a routine for me... when can i ever get a real answer of my own... when can i have the girl i love.... i duno... life is so unfair...

sign off blogging

9.10pm

2006-02-22T06:20:00.000-08:00

22/02/2006

10.22pm

scoldings... lectures... meetings are wad i did the whole bloody day.... 8.55am... just when i got my fat ass laid on the chair, the teacher came to gave me and minshun a 10min short chanting lecture .... my god... she warn us with a stern look and verbally gave us a warning.... 5 mins after that... she tour us to a mass meeting with the rest of EMRS students.... and that burns the whole morning of mine.... without breakfast~~... my god...

during noon time, i was busying preparing for the coming event on this friday... my team which is classfied as "team 6" will be taking over a external supplier for this coming roadshow... we got lots of stuff we need to do.... my god... this is killing me man.... meetings at 2.45pm and 3.30pm consectively.... meetings and meetings are what i have today.... from 1pm... i finally got my rest at 5.22pm... lucky i do have my daily yakut drink...hoho....

one thing i am very puzzle about love... why do people wish to give up when they know in the future they will regret.... why people still choose let their loved one get hurt and then later try lots of ways to make up for them... why some people never realli stand in a different angle to look at a person good than all their weakness....

hope god enlighten me...

sign off blogging

10.32pm

2006-02-21T05:59:00.000-08:00

21/02/2006

10.04pm

today i met up with zhuaper for breakfast and lunch.... one thing i found out about him... he has been eating alot alot recently... depression? happy? i would't know... but one thing for sure...getting fatter... haha....

oo..ya... my buddy shir..sick today.... aiyo..poor thing... hope she recover by this few days .... bless her.

recently all the people around me has been suffering from serious love problem... some recovering from break ups...some third party problems...some depression.... well... for my case... i duno really know did i really that strong that i have already give up or wad... but one thing for sure... sometimes i still miss her... i duno why... love is powerful is'nt it...

i hurt my wrist when i was doing gym... anyone wanna care? pls leave in the tag box... i will give a free gift in return "man hunt kiss..." hoho...

sign off blogging
10.18pm

2006-02-20T06:33:00.000-08:00

20/02/2006

10.33pm

today i made a few new friends~~ hoho.... cause new TEP students..new friends... quite happy with that... ha.

afternoon was the most unbearable time to pass.... i was partically doing nothin but walking around like a model in and out of BPOS... my god... i guess those who are in the room see me like a fly swinging here and there all the time... why do i not stay in my desk... reason behind it are... the BPOS was a very big big room... it contains of a very main living room for all BPOS students... one bedroom that consider of EMRS student... and lastly my team members... a STORE ROOM... wth... seriously... we are hiding in a corner of the room... no one will ever notice us there unless they walk up to throw rubbish there.... my god..wad an treatment...

in the evening, i met up with anand kurma bin cute cute dark dark... haha..dinner at suki sukura... hoho.. we ate a lot... haa..but yea..oyster there..sucks... disgusted by that... long time nv see him... feel that he mature~ haha... hope he and annie last very long ... hoho... when i was on my way back.. i was approached by this survey girl... she sweet talk to me... wth... say i fit... cute..etc... in the end... was just wanting me to sign a dumb saving plan... haha...

hope happy things come to me soon... :) bless me...

2006-02-19T06:39:00.000-08:00

19/02/2006

10.40pm

today was a good day for me... the first thing i woke up i found out... breakfast is ready... hoho... feel like a king in the morning... haha... ate my breakfast den sms low chingyou... our future singapore idol... but yea... he was out... good thing u tried man.. u can stand up like a man... :)

in the noon...i was assigned a very important task by my dad to buy 4D... haha... i guess i am too lucky.. i went to buy for him.. and he strike... haha... only a few hundred dollars but yea... is the luck that counts...

during evening time, i went to city link and marina square for a walk... end up at esplande looking at the view there.... the view is so nice... so romantic... yet so comfortable.... was planning to bring my future gf there often... took a few pictures too... reach home with a heavy heart...guess my heart still have a burden within me...

2006-02-18T06:27:00.000-08:00

18/02/2006

10.25pm

Uncle Ben feel super super bored today man.... i woke up very anticipted about tonight dinner with anand kurma bin stupid guy.... yea.. in the morning, he sms me... "can we cancel the dinner...? " O.. my god... feeling is like whole day i got nothin to do...

In the noon...went out with my sister for lunch... we had KFC for lunch... my god...where is my diet plan man~~... haha... hopeless....

I am lying on my bed the whole day to think of what to do tommorrow.... i gotta get my fat butt out of this house tommorrow before anything progress contribute to my fat tummy... haha... i think i gotta walk around the town.. or maybe go for a stroll at the nearest beach ba... haha.. gotta be a simple day tomorrow... hopefully.. i get my mind clear of something tonight...

sign off blogging
10.40pm

2006-02-17T06:38:00.000-08:00

17/02/2006

10.37pm

Today i had my breakfast with the same old gayish zhua per.... haha... there he goes on his finger and bird bird story... haha... seems like things are going to his way finally... work hard... go for it!

I work like a free delivery boy..traveling in the school delivering food and drinks... at first i took up this first delivery job from shir... bought her porridge... as she was busy... den i duno what the hell happened.... people around me start taking orders.. like coke lime... mentors... and everything... but yea... i guess i am kinda nice to fufuil every single order....

in the noon... i dated my beloved secondary buddy kah yip for a little basketball game... feel good to be in the court again... haha... we challedge a few people there... the feeling was so different from what i used to play... so relax... yet exciting.. guess it was like the feeling in secondary school.... feel good~ but knnb... sprain my finger... sad... haha...

tomorrow gotta date my beloved niggel friend.. anand kurma bin cute cute for dinner... haha... think he gotta enjoy it ba... awaiting for my present too... hoho... he gotta bring annie!!! wth... who i gotta bring... me, myself and benson? haha... maybe zhuaper? haha.... o..ya..before i end this blog for today... i set a target for myself... i want to go on a diet!!! i mean it hor... guys... take my words for real... haha...

sign off blogging

10.55pm

2006-02-16T06:31:00.000-08:00

16/02/2006

10.30pm

Today i pontang~~ hoho... was pretty bored at home in the morning... but yea..in afternoon i went over to xiao xi house.... went to play PS2 with her cousin... swimming was a part of the whole day activity, we had fun, hoho.... i had my whole day there...reach home by 9.30pm haa... nothin else....

end of blogging
10.35pm

2006-02-15T06:29:00.000-08:00

15/02/2006

10.28pm

today... sad sad sad... bored bored bored... had a meeting with my teammates in the morning... met up with zhuaper, steven, foen and xianglin for a short while...

in the noon... meet up with liming and susan to help them along with the DAE stuff... but yea... think they gotta wait for another year... bad news for them... sob... but yea... they still got a fighting chance... god bless them...

btw... took train home with tammi... yea... everyone will do mistake yea... learn from it.. today i went for a run to sembawang and play ball... saw someone there... fate? haha... duno le...

in summary..made a few friends today... tatwee... rachel..janet...erica... susan... haha.. happy.

i hope to led my life to a happy ending....

sign off blogging

10.42pm

2006-02-14T07:19:00.000-08:00

14/02/2006

11.21pm

Today is v'day... and v'day for me is just like anyday of my current life... nothing special.. had breakfast with zhuaper and a morning talk with zhangyuan... well... for nyp's basketball men, love life is going not so smoothly... bless us god...

Went to watch i not stupid.. woah.. that show was touching... i shed a few tears... was touched...
from the show..i realise something that i had never realli pay attention to it in the past... i find it pretty true... why not look at a people talent and merits point... why must we be so "si xin yan" maybe that is the nature of humans...

went for a jog... i think this is the best way i relieve the loneliness in me... feel much better now already... god... let me carry on this way.. i hope i can smell the air of a free guy once again... bless me...

sign off blogging

11.30pm

2006-02-13T04:25:00.000-08:00

8.24pm

13/02/2006

Today was a dull day man... i was particularly doing nothin but waited for the time to pass.... man.. that is boring... i am in no mood to write anything... but yea... in summary... today i meet up with zhua per... steven... foen... xianglin...tammi.... cheryl...any my fellow EMRS groupmates...

btw...lena left a tag msg to me... well.. ya.. is my blog... i gotta led on my life... i will buddy... haha...

o ya..tml is valentine ... hope i get some chocolate tml from anyone... haha....

sign off blogging

8.35pm

2006-02-12T04:28:00.000-08:00

12/02/2006

8.26pm

i had a very tiring day... my god...hectic sunday man.... 6am~~.. in the morning... accompany low ching yu "lao heng" to singapore idol~~... haha... well.. he is keen for it... so as a brother... i will be there for him.. in phyiscally...and morally... yup.. reach there around 730am... but yea...waited till 1pm before we had our lunch at mache....

woah..my first visit to mache today... the atomsphere is... kinda classic... yea... comfortable... but ya.. the food there...not up to my expectation... i had cheese sausage for lunch...
right after lunch... "lao heng" went back to the audition... while i went to a place to settle my personal stuff.... it took me 2 hours to delivery the stuff to "HIM"... and we had a chat on "HER". well... when i got the news..i was a bit soft hearted... but yea... i hope she knows what is best for her....

wth! singapore idol audition for "lao heng" was postponed.... to next week... wasted our effort getting down there... nabei... anyway... we head to compass point for a transaction and then we head to sembawang beach for dinner.... well... one thing i can say is the ambience there is realli nice... very windy... very nice lightings... very nice songs... yea... i love it... although the dinner mate was a guy but yea... i still enjoy it... that place name was 'beaulien place' ... the prawn with butter and cheese was a classic deal... it tasted so good... so yummy...

well... actually two moody guy went out today to ease the unsettling mood within their heart, end up in a hectic day... and full of good food... i feel good after the day... hope ching yu too... yea... bro... i pray for ya.. cheer up dude...

sign off blogging...
ben

8.40pm

2006-02-11T04:23:00.000-08:00

11/02/2005

8.21pm

valentime time day is coming... my god... now i look around my friends... everyone has a target...where mine? i am so alone... what the hell... woke up today feeling kinda empty inside... got HER message at noon... SHE finally call me to give up... SHE finally admit she dun wan me anymore althought she had repeated many times that she dun wan me anymore... but yea... i took this time for real...
anyway.. my father strike toto..~~ haha... 90bucks... althought he bought 120 dollars of toto.. and got back $90..we still call for an celebration at triple 8... haha... got a very full dinner... hoho... when i got back home... there is a sudden urge to visit the beach... so many things happened... my great grandma pass away... i feel so alone.. i am broke... so much more... life is kinda sucky at the moment... i wish to visit the beach... which beach? and where...? i duno... wish i could figure something tml....
in a life time... there are so many choices... how we choose... what we choose.. is all up to us... i had lots of mistake in the past.. i live on with that... i guess even if i regret... i will still led my life as it is.... i miss those days in secondary school... seriously.. although there is a bad reputation but at least.. i dun feel so suffering.... hope V'day... someone date me out... haha... or someone accept my date... haha..

sign off
ben
8.35pm

2006-02-10T04:55:00.000-08:00

10/02/2006

8.57pm

this morning is super lifeless... i attended morning meeting but was kinda piss off by someone... but yea.. recover after that. i went to shop for a birthday present for my mummy~~.. woah... bought her a bag... it was lime in color ... she seems happy when she recieve it.. yea.. i guess efforts is paid off...

in the noon... i recieve a sms from HER...i was shock... we exchange a few sms later on... but yea... deep inside i was so confused.... i force myself not to think too much after that as my NAPFA test was going to start....

yea.. i did badly for my pull ups... did only 5.. my god.. i am a fatass... the rest..yea... not bad... in the end..because of the pull ups.. i got sliver... sucks... haha..

in my mind... what must i do... what can i do... i wun't know... i dun dare to try.. dun dare to reject... i am such a jackass.... hope things work out for me... yea...

sign off blogging...

9.10pm

2006-02-08T18:27:00.000-08:00

09/02/2006
10.34am

Yesterday night for me was a miserable night.... SHE read my blog... SHE was pissed... SHE say i have nv change... still same old flirty me... ya..maybe she is right... i do know other girls in school... but me and them remain so neutral... just friends... wad about her... she has a bf... she say she wan me but she show no actions... i am so confused to hold on or let go... my heart sulken and suffer badly yesterday night... i slept around 4plus... wad she wants... how she acts.. i am so so confused... god... should i let go...? should i let her feel how i felt for the past few weeks... maybe i should... maybe i will... god bless me~....

morning blogging... to be contin.....

contin now.. 9.25pm...

I had lunch with zhuaper again... feel more gay with him .... wth... two manly guys together for hours and hours...days and days... aha... but yea..it was comfortable la... i watch 40 year old virgin for a while with shir n zhuaper... very cool... but yea.. did't get to finish it cause me and zhuaper gotta rush for the big event....
speaking about the big event... yes..it is zhangyuan special event... i went to help him... my first time entering a five star hotel...first time standing at 58 storey looking at the scenary, it was cool... it was a very big big event for him... we decro the room... create the atomsphere... it was unbelievable romantic... i pray things work out fine for him later on...

anyway, supporting roles are... low ching yu... zhuaper...cutecute benben... weird weird ming.... main actor... zhu zhang yuan...
after that moment when i was going home... i was thinking... this kinda effort... i had once did it ... although not in those luxury way..but in my own hardship way... in the end, things did not realli work out right for me... but yea..bro... i hope it work out for u.... i pray for ya...
Reach home... check out the friendster... did not see what i wish i hope to see... when can i... how would i feel... how am i suppose to react... i duno... just hope it happen fast....

ended blogging...
9.40pm

2006-02-08T03:17:00.000-08:00

08/02/2006
7.17pm

Yoz... Second day of my Blogging...

today was a hectic day... i was very busy till late late noon...my team and i came out with a survey... we run up and down for kind souls to fill up the survey... we analysis the survey result.. and mail to the teacher in charge... she was so fussy about particular stuff that i personally feel does't realli matter that much...

I had my breakfast with zhuaper... yes... there we go from our emotional feelings to singing duel love songs... hoho...

Lunch with wendy was great... she very cute... she become more close with me... i meant feelings.. not phyiscal wise..haha...

During late noon..i went to gym with feng huo lun steven and emo zhuaper with cute cute foen... haha... blangala hong wei join in later... i went to had a light dinner with my bf stef... haha... she make my day.. her smile is so sweet... haha..pengz..

i got to know this girl name geradline... at admin room... she very cute and decent... tease her a bit.. haha.. but yea... nothin else...

Ended my day with a new friend of mine... the name shall be enclosed till the time ripe... from what i know..she is a nice girl...but she is facing some problem... hope everything go right for her... god bless her....

7.40pm

2006-02-07T06:11:00.000-08:00

ur10.07pm

07/02/2006

YeS! hours of coding blogskin... hours of editting... here i come.. my first blog entry!

Second day of second stopover at TEP-emrs

same as usual... first thing i woke up.. i on my com... went to the friendster webbie to check it out... i went to check ONE specific address...

few days ago... "SHE" promise me to show some actions to prove to me that her decision was firm... ya~~ i saw~~ she place her current bf's picture in... wad an action it was... it was like so different... it was like vice versa of what she told me that very night... i question her... she gave me excuses that i dun think an primary school kid would even buy it... but yea... she make it sound like a matter of fact thing.... ~~ I reach my school with a heavy heart... attended project meetings...Things happened again around 10plus... "SHE" sms me... told me that she wish to meet me tomorrow... i was thinking... what for... i ain't no part time bf when "SHE" full time bf is not around... i ain't not that type u can manipulate around with... she spoil my mood the whole day... the whole bloody tuesday...

Songs are the best medicine for sulky mood... i went to find my bf STEF. haha.. to accompany me for lunch... my bf is so nice... so gentle to me... feel glad to have stef around.....me and zhuaper spend half of the day together... singing... eating... sharing our deepest sorrow... zhuaper sang a song from 5566, song name is wu nan guo... that song suit us alot... the part where it goes like "wo yi wei shi chen quan, ke shi ni que shuo ni gen bu yu kwai" something like this... haiz.. love is so powerful... zhuaper and me are struck in this love triangle for a long time... we hope to end it by v'day. zhuaper.. go for it... no regrets... i am cheering for u!! and cheering for myself too....

ended blogging at 10.27pm